Was fun! It was the best two and a half weeks! I needed it! It was awesome! I had loads of fun and walked around for hours with my friend xD
But... two days after I come home my aunt passes away. At least I managed to say goodbye. Her funeral will be this Friday.
Four days after I have come home I go to surgery because my gallstones are killing me and have to be taken out but they could have been taken out TWO MONTHS BEFORE FOR FUCKS SAKE! The medical system here sucks! The medical staff is horrible! I could have DIED! I had a few gallstones on the move!
Now I'm recovering and doing well, I won't have any more gallstone pain BUT I will always have horrible and painful cramps because I have endometriosis and yay for having a body that's against me!
What a welcome home, eh?
Now I'm back to being in the confines of my room, with my computer, because I have no friends here in Iceland, I have nothing to do, no one to hang out with besides family but family can be pretty tiring and I just wanna go back to the Netherlands and stay with my friend forever. I won't be lonely then. But.... that can't happen so I'll brainstorm ideas and think they're amazing then trash them because my ideas are shit and nobody is going to like them anyway and I'll just forever keep stuff to myself because that's how I am and that's how things have always been.
You're all too good for me and I'm just that little fly that never goes away because I want acceptance but at the same time I will fly away and stick myself to a corner somewhere and be quiet for hours if you do give me attention.